not a song of love…it’s a saga rather.

I gave up writing right here a months ago.

Don’t know what the heck brings me back. Please bear with me.

 

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow

It was when one of my scallywags intended to search his profile on my fb and though he typed his initial, fb offered to show you up first that he got to know I am not over you.

Did I retort?

No.

Why?

Because I fall in love with you every time I see you.  

I can give up cajoling you…following you…pissing you, if I put it blunt and I have done it already. But, I can’t retract the unfettered rush of adrenaline that creates ecstasy even in the bleakest tick of the day when I see you.

Love…they call it divine just because you don’t intend to love somebody. You just love.

It may be one sided but I don’t repent. I love loving you. Of course everybody has choices and I am okay with not being your choice. But this can only make my love dumb. To my glee you know about it.

There are pros as well…one being no restriction on ’bird watching’ (though I don’t enjoy it anymore) that is unpalatable on part of men in relationships (serious ones) ;-)  

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

But, some laws are better off when not breached and so the departure is close and it intimidates me often just like the big fat pumpkin did when I was young. I smile to myself when I think of that fateful day when I thought that that doomsday, back in 2007, was for something good. “Eternity of happiness” as I christened it. But I never knew that my “eternity of happiness” had come with an expiry date.

Hapless I am.

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

P.S. – earlier it was “tera hone laga hun” and now it is “taakte rehte tujko” that plays as the background music.

P.S. – only studies make the world go round…make me proud.