दुनिया में कितना गम है, मेरा गम कितना कम हैl

They say, you write when you are sad…

They are right.

My left leg thumb was hurt and it was then that I realized how important this part of body which I thought was redundant, is.  Maybe, we must thank God for the little things he does for us. But life has its own ways to teach us.

This is not the first time I have come across something like this in my life.

I remember, how I used to be the key of my department in Singrauli? And today, when I am no one, I realize how I didn’t cherish the good times by simply not being thankful enough to God.

Being more thankful to God was my plan till yesterday.

Today, I woke up to a very bad news. One of my friends from Singrauli died in an accident. He is survived by his two very-very young children and his wife. They saw him dying.

He used to live across the street. Every day, when I used to go to office, we would cross paths and he would say that both of us share the same biological clock. They were a small happy family, complete in all aspects. He was posted in the HQ previously and had come on a request transfer because his paternal house was close from Singrauli. Two years on and he is farthest he could have ever been.

They say everything happens for good.  

But what is good about this?

I am shocked and confused at the same time.

“Man proposes, God disposes” is a very famous proverb which I have always imagined in negative light.

We always justify the actions and reactions of God with sayings, proverbs, stories. But it simply is how we lull kids to sleep when they are restless.

Not everything that happens is justified. I till date have justified the happenings and mis-happenings in my life by the though, “तुम जो अपने लिए सोचते हो, उससे अच्छा भगवान तुम्हारे लिए सोचता हैl”

But I think, I am wrong. This can’t be true for the lost friend of mine.

Possibly, it is also not true for a few things happening with me and my family.

And so, for today, I have God in the witness box. I need him to justify a few things, answer a few questions.

PS- I trust you more with each passing day…but sometimes, you are wrong, absolutely wrong.

Festival Called Life...

A day after Diwali, I was pondering how I spent my day on the occasion?

 I was wondering how indefatigable I was, how I was running around to fetch sweets, Pooja Samagri and other stuff not even being aware of weariness. I bought myself a new set of clothes, chose them from the store shelf trying so many and then finalising one. In the evening my mother, I and my wife joyfully laid down Rangolis and decorated the Poojan Sthal. Then, during the Shubh Mahurat, we offered prayers to the Goddess Laxmi and Lord Ganesha. We prayed for good health and well being of Family and friends. Then, for the purpose of doing our bit for environment, we went with celebrating Cracker free Diwali. Post this, we had sweets and Poori Bhaji for dinner and went to sleep. This marked the end of festivities of the biggest festival called Diwali.

On the next morning, I woke up feeling depressed, sucked up by the illness called life, and unwillingly dragged myself into the chores.

How ironical it is?

On both the days, the same sunrise marked the start of the day, my wife was ailing on both the days, my father was struck in election duty on both the days, my mother's knees didn't bend on both the days, I was struggling to find my niche in the new office, I was trying to fit in the new city. I had the same set of problems, damn.

Then what was different?

 The attitude...the approach towards life...

A few days back, I got an opportunity to listen to a motivational speaker who spoke of how positivity in life is important.

He said that when you think of your past, 90 percent of the memories that you recall belong to the things that didn’t go well and make you sad. And when you think of future, most of the time you are intimidated by the fears of the unknown. But, there is neither fear nor sorrows in the present moment. 

So the trick is to "shut the future, cut the past and live in the present."

What this does is that it makes your approach positive towards life. You are not mournful of the mis-happenings in the past and there is not an element of anxiety about the future in your present and this does the magic.

Living in the present is like singing in the bathroom. It does not send chills of performing in front of a million people down your spine, rather results in better confidence levels and ultimately you do better in life. And thus, the no. of regrets for your future comes down.

So, summing it all up, the adage for the new age is "shut the future, cut the past and live in the present."

Let's pledge to celebrate the festival called Life because it is only once.